I started writing this a while ago, when someone asked me a seemingly simple question. I've put a lot of thought into it. I'm posting it now, because I finally think it is finished. The question was:Is there one thing that quickly takes you beyond the normal boundaries of yourself? Beyond the . . . (More)
I haven't felt like myself lately. I'm not sure how that fits in to the cause/effect cycle of not writing. It's not just my writing that is suffering, though. I don't know how to fix the problem, because I'm not sure exactly what the problem is. All I seem to be able to confirm is that it is definit . . . (More)
I don't know if this is true for everyone, but it is true for me.There comes a point where trust is broken beyond reasonable repair. Not that it could not be regained -- and in the experience I had recently, it very nearly was -- but that the method of regaining is so far beyond what can be expected . . . (More)
I'm not sure how to say this... I'll put it the best that I can.I will not settle. I will not lay back and take what is given to me if it is less than what I need or want. It won't happen.That means something different than it once might have. Once, it would have meant that when things got too tough . . . (More)
I spend far too much time judging myself. I'm sure I'm not alone in this.
Was I right? Was I wrong? Was I good enough? Should I? Shouldn't I? Why am I so messed up?
Just a few of my queries, and my head is spinning.
What if there's nothing wrong with me? What if there's nothing wrong with any of . . . (More)
In response to someone's opinion, I have asked myself more than once "Is that really who I am?" or "Is that really the way I seem to people?"
And I forget.
I forget that perception is colored by experience -- Not only someone's experience of me, but of their entire life. I am certain that I d . . . (More)
Some days I find that I am waiting....
Do this or say that, and I won't be grumpy any more.
How entirely selfish and juvenile. This is love, not a negotiation. It is a relationship, not a manipulation to get what I want. How silly of me.
When I see it -- when I realize what I am doing, and that . . . (More)
"What is an archerWithout a target?"
"Our goals should be entirely personal. No one knows us better than we know ourselves. There is only one universal goal: a gracious death with no regrets."
365 Tao -- Daily Meditations; by Deng Ming-Dao
A death with no regrets. That is a goal indeed. I have ve . . . (More)
Something is bothering me. The things that set me off lately seem to have a pattern. There is something wrong more than just a 'bad mood.'
I have yet to figure out the connection.
I don't know what it is, but it's festering under the surface until I feel I could combust at any moment. It's fr . . . (More)