me:  is it just me, or does more people = more drama, no matter what you do?friend:  it's not just youunfortunately me:  tell me it gets better?right now it's like every other day there is some new disasterfriend:  it can, but it takes a lot of work from all parties involvedit ta . . . (More)

I wear my own masks.I didn't cry until you were out of the room.It hurt enough without having you see my tears.   Fuck you very much. Addendum: If I didn't love you so much, it wouldn't get to me the way it does.

I love you. Not despite your faults. Including them.

I am sorry for the loss of K in my life. I worry for him. I wonder. I hope, for his future. He is such a beautiful, beautiful man, and I wish for his life to reflect and enhance that beauty. He deserves it. I am sad that I could not be a part of it. I started feeling that I was doing more to frustra . . . (More)

Love. It's not all rainbows and fairy tales. Sometimes... It hurts. And it's scary. And it's tough. It's one of the toughest things around. Love... Love is feeling someone bristle at your concern. Love is holding someone while they fight you, because they need to be held even if they don't wan . . . (More)

I had a really great weekend. The date I spoke of went well. Despite some mishaps. Alright, I admit it, I dropped steak on the floor. When Jae said he would eat it anyway, I proceeded to overcook it. Awesome! Nervous distraction means I should keep away from the kitchen, methinks. He did actua . . . (More)

We were out at some event. Lass, D, and myself. Something happened, I don't recall what, and D told Lass to leave. I could see she was hurt, but she left. No questions, no struggle, just left. I confronted him about it. Told him it wasn't ok. So he told me to leave, too. I went after her. I was tal . . . (More)

Things are good. For now. Isn't it always 'for now?' Life is full of ups and downs! I love it. Every moment. Had a talk with K about working out more time together. He agreed to think about it. And, after thinking, declined the options we'd discussed. Oh well. Tonight... Tonight I have a talk with . . . (More)

I'm a stubborn girl. Despite my emotional desire to take it all back, I won't. Despite my fear of being hurt, I'll stay open. Because I expect him to. Because it's worth it. Because I refuse to go back behind those dark, cold walls that held me for so long. I'm still cautious with K. I have need to . . . (More)