I feel vibrant. Clear. Vibrating with life.Ideas flying through my head like dragonflies. Zipping. Zooming. Floating. So close I could touch them, but oh! Pinning down something so beautiful seems a waste. No diorama under glass could capture the other-worldly way they move.I'm coming out from the t . . . (More)

I have everything I wanted. Someone once told me that I couldn't have it. That I was setting myself up to fail by looking for it. I wanted something more than multiple partners. I wanted a Husband -- a man who was dominant and sweet, a Daddy type, someone who would control me and help me . . . (More)

We recently worked out an exchange with the Bratling. She comes over about once a week to visit & stays the night. It's nice to have somewhat regular time with her. Last week, we dug up the spare key for her.After she drives me to work in the morning, she goes back to the house and does some cle . . . (More)

My son, four years old, running through the lawn at sunset. One arm raised above his head, carrying a stick. One arm down, with palm open to the earth. I heard drums. I saw the bonfire. Even if only for a moment. And I felt whole.

I grew up in the high desert. Winter snows. Dusty, dry summers. This place is my bones. My history and heritage. I live in the valley. Lush, green vegetation and lots of rain. This place is my blood. My home is my life. The land is my body. The air is my spirit. These two very different places are . . . (More)

Things are good. For now. Isn't it always 'for now?' Life is full of ups and downs! I love it. Every moment. Had a talk with K about working out more time together. He agreed to think about it. And, after thinking, declined the options we'd discussed. Oh well. Tonight... Tonight I have a talk with . . . (More)

I've been feeling really burnt out at work lately. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to deal with anyone. I don't have the energy to get up from my desk and take care of what needs doing. I've been meaning to set up a day off. But, yesterday, I couldn't convince myself to get up and get goi . . . (More)

I think there was a bigger deal made of my birthday this year than there has been for many years. Last year we went out one night, on my own planning. To my favorite strip club. It was so much fun, that I planned it again this year. Different players, same idea. It was, again, a ton of fun. Before . . . (More)

It must be winter. I'm in craft mode. I spent part of yesterday cleaning and doing laundry. Part organizing things. And... I spent most of the evening -- up until midnight, actually -- playing with my crafts. I sorted through fabric and found remnants that had been sitting around. I'm making apron . . . (More)

Frilly! And bows! And cuteness! Apparently my inner four year old really loves lolita style clothing.