Tomorrow is my five year wedding anniversary. Sometimes it seems odd to be saying that, knowing that we were apart for so long. And yet... That time apart is what made it possible for me to celebrate this milestone.As much as I have grown in these years, so has he. We are both getting closer to bein . . . (More)

Sometimes we fight. I don't mean that we just disagree and argue a little. I mean sometimes... We cry, and yell, and lose any semblance of sanity. Sometimes I feel like ripping into someone with teeth and nails 'til blood flows, and I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one.It used to leave me feeli . . . (More)

Our words are getting better. I am getting better at saying mine. Speaking calmly when something hurts my feelings, and remembering that what was done or said was not likely meant to hurt. He is getting better at not taking my hurt personally. He is also speaking his own words. The Hubby and I figh . . . (More)

I have everything I wanted. Someone once told me that I couldn't have it. That I was setting myself up to fail by looking for it. I wanted something more than multiple partners. I wanted a Husband -- a man who was dominant and sweet, a Daddy type, someone who would control me and help me . . . (More)

Hubby and I took a four day weekend. We spent two nights at the coast, enjoying each others company.Mostly we spent time looking out the window over the beach. Watching the waves. We took long walks late at night. We browsed some shops. We talked.When we got home, it was Solstice day. The Bratling c . . . (More)

I'm not sure how to say this... I'll put it the best that I can.I will not settle. I will not lay back and take what is given to me if it is less than what I need or want. It won't happen.That means something different than it once might have. Once, it would have meant that when things got too tough . . . (More)

"Thats the first time in a while that you haven't flinched," he says. And it's true. I made a decision. I trust my husband. There were moments that I found myself looking. And, as I watched him work, I wanted to speak. I wanted to advise. I asked myself 'Am I being helpful, or am I trying to take . . . (More)

"I wanted to have something to say for this, but I changed my mind. You know what this means." We're seated on the floor, in front of the fire. "I don't want you to change. I want you just as you are. I want you as mine." He places the strip of silver around my neck, and closes it. "In ever . . . (More)

We sat on the wet sand, watching the waves. Hours before dawn, all we could see were the white tops as they tumbled to shore. The sky and sea were equally dark.   "I love you like that," I said. "What do you mean?" He asked.   Huge, and deep. Life-giving. People search the universe fo . . . (More)

Do not speak unless spoken to.Do not move without permission.If you must speak, or move, raise your hand for acknowledgement first. These rules, while not practical for daily use -- what, with a child and jobs to attend to, along with friends, errands, chores, and other activities -- speak to my co . . . (More)