Love. It's not all rainbows and fairy tales. Sometimes... It hurts. And it's scary. And it's tough. It's one of the toughest things around. Love... Love is feeling someone bristle at your concern. Love is holding someone while they fight you, because they need to be held even if they don't wan . . . (More)

There aren't many people in this world that I trust absolutely. Most of them I expect to fade away. Run away. Slip away. (Is this the cause or the result of how terrible I am at keeping in touch?) I've said before that when I love, it's forever. I care about people that I shouldn't even think about . . . (More)

I had a really great weekend. The date I spoke of went well. Despite some mishaps. Alright, I admit it, I dropped steak on the floor. When Jae said he would eat it anyway, I proceeded to overcook it. Awesome! Nervous distraction means I should keep away from the kitchen, methinks. He did actua . . . (More)

Things are good. For now. Isn't it always 'for now?' Life is full of ups and downs! I love it. Every moment. Had a talk with K about working out more time together. He agreed to think about it. And, after thinking, declined the options we'd discussed. Oh well. Tonight... Tonight I have a talk with . . . (More)

I think there was a bigger deal made of my birthday this year than there has been for many years. Last year we went out one night, on my own planning. To my favorite strip club. It was so much fun, that I planned it again this year. Different players, same idea. It was, again, a ton of fun. Before . . . (More)

I have some things to say, but they're not solidified in my mind. If I start writing now, it will wander all over the place and not actually say anything. So I'm sitting here in silence, trying to settle on one topic. One point of choice. One idea that I want to convey. While I sat here trying to f . . . (More)

...How lucky I am? Lucky enough to have a second chance with K. The man I love. As he says, second chances are rare, third chances don't exist. (He's wrong, of course, about thirds, but I think I'll refrain from pointing that out at this point.) Lucky enough to have my (ex)husband as one of my bes . . . (More)

Just a quick update on the Dad situation. He's fine. They'll keep him in the hospital for a few more days, and he's not allowed to eat solid foods. They're pretty sure they got it all in surgery, though. Thanks to everyone for your kind words and thoughts. If there's anything good that came of this . . . (More)

It occurs to me this may have been the first time that I had to disclose my personal self to someone 'new.' My close friends were with me through the realizations and growth that has brought me to where I am today. The rest of the new folks come into my life in ways that have them already knowing t . . . (More)