I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. Up late talking, playing, being around the people I love in whatever way I can. Still, I've been waking up feeling more refreshed and ready for the day than I have felt in a while. I guess this is what it's like when I'm happy.
I must have been sleeping awfully deeply last night. I woke up on the far side of a king bed, and had to scoot pretty far to find my snuggle-buddy again. I remember thinking "How the heck did I get way over here?" I love to be able to touch, at the least, and preferably press fully body-to-body when sleeping.
When I sleep at K's on a Tuesday, he doesn't sleep with me. It's his night to stay up and try to get on schedule for work. In the morning, before I wake up, he comes in and lays down next to me. I always wake up just enough to make sure that we're cuddled up close. One of the best parts of snuggling is being wrapped in the one you love when the alarm goes off.
I don't mind sleeping alone, though. It's uncomfortable to sleep alone when I'm living with someone -- and I've done it, so I know. But right now it's nice to be able to go home and spread out on my own bed, with my bright pink sheets. Not that I want to every night, but just that it's there and I can.
Sometimes I need to dream alone. Even when you're not there beside me, you're always with me where it counts.
Lucky enough to have a second chance with K. The man I love. As he says, second chances are rare, third chances don't exist. (He's wrong, of course, about thirds, but I think I'll refrain from pointing that out at this point.)
Lucky enough to have my (ex)husband as one of my best friends. As a lover. Someone who has kept me sane through all of this, and someone who seems to benefit from having me in his life as much as I benefit from him.
Lucky enough to be witness to some very closed off people when they open up. Beautiful people with gorgeous hearts, allowing me a glimpse.
I don't know how I got so lucky. I don't know what I'm doing right. But I hope that it keeps going. My son, my work, my family, my friends, my men. I love you all so very, very much.