We have problems. I admit this freely. Sometimes these problems seem overwhelmingly impossible. Sometimes so overwhelming that we both feel beat.
Other times, it's hard to remember that we do have problems.
I could list a dozen or more good things about you. You like to brush them off as "just how it is," but I think we both agree that while maybe it should be that way, it often isn't. I could list the things you do, or say, but that isn't why I stay. That's only how it started.
I stay because I know you. You're a good man. You are a match for me. In every way. When I'm not so crazed with emotion I can't think straight, I understand you. I know who you are on the inside, even when the outside frustrates me. I stay, because no matter how bad it gets, I know that without you is worse. You are my Mate.
No matter what the problem is, I have faith in our ability to get through it. I stay, because you never make me question your love. Because you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to my children. You understand me. And when you don't understand me, when I don't make sense, you try anyway.
You are the only person I have ever felt safe being vulnerable with. The only one I have been able to be fully open to.
A few bumps in the road aren't enough to shake me off. Heck, a canyon wouldn't be enough.
I stay because the good always outweighs the bad. Your best always outweighs your worst.
My writing has fallen by the wayside, along with most of my other creative outlets. I really need to pick it back up. That in mind, I am going to try to do one writing per week. Most of them will probably be from prompts. Starting now.
Today, I will look at myself in the mirror, and really see me. Today, I will listen to my child with my full attention. Today, I will give my partner more than a peck. Today, I will hug someone with my heart, because we both need it. Today, I will stand tall. Today, I will be mindful of the moment. Today, I will put down my phone. Today, I will log off. Today, I will be present. Today, I will reach out to a friend. Today, I will express myself. Today, I will take a risk.
Today, I will be more of me than yesterday. I will set aside my bad habits, and learn new ones. I will not let the stress win. My stubbornness will be a strength, instead of a weakness, and I will give in when appropriate. I will not hang on to the past. I will not beat myself up over mistakes. I will take criticism and praise with equal grace.