Do not speak unless spoken to. Do not move without permission. If you must speak, or move, raise your hand for acknowledgement first.
These rules, while not practical for daily use -- what, with a child and jobs to attend to, along with friends, errands, chores, and other activities -- speak to my core.
Day-to-day, I am an independent, willful, stubborn creature. I refuse to ask for help unless I have no other choice. I want what I want, and I want it as soon as possible, if not yesterday. I'm selfish. Self absorbed, even.
Inside... Behind all of what is required for functioning in the world... I am his.
When it is possible, he controls me. I struggle to find the balance that allows me to handle the day-to-day while still submitting to him. So these times away -- these rare vacations from life as Myself -- are things to cherish. I can be the other girl. The one that is behind the stone carving of a woman. The one loathe to do so much as breathe without specific instruction.
Nothing without the approval of my Master. There is an amazing sense of freedom in that.