I just got off the phone. And, while I'm convinced that I should be happy to have heard from the person on the other end, somehow the call just depressed me.
Seems like we spend a lot of time saying "Lets get together soon." So far, it hasn't happened. No day or time has been set. Just occasional calls.
Seeing him while he's at work is just not the same.
I have a lot of thoughts on this one, but I don't think I could explain. Not in a way that makes sense, anyhow. In summation, the relationship (or lack) just makes me feel like I'm not good enough for him. Not young enough, not pretty enough, not worthy... Not something, I don't know what, but whatever it is I can't change it.
I guess I should talk to him about it. It's not going to change by desire alone.